Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Get With It, Coleman!
"For everything there is a season,
A time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace."
Ecclesiates 3:1-8
One of my all time favorite scriptures. It is a great life reminder!
Speaking of life reminders ... it's been a while!!! I REALLY need to sit my butt down, atleast once a week and blog. It's good therapy. It's also a good passdown for Brooke one day, when she gets older.
Life is good over in these parts. I still work for the transportation company for Academy. It's been about a year and 1/2 now. I still enjoy it. There have been a few bumps, but like any job nothing that I couldn't overcome. It's definitely a fast paced business and I work more now than I ever did. I'm just holding out for that big break when I'll be able to slow down a little and enjoy life.
Brooke turned 5 last Wednesday!!! My little baby is now definitely my little girl. She loves all things Spongebob, dress up, Barbies, playing house, playing with her best friend Chesney, and has more energy than anyone I've ever seen. Did I ever have that much energy?!?! She is sleeping by herself now. I know that sounds like it should be old news, but nope - it was the one thing we both had a hard time breaking. She sleeps in her big girl bunk bed and has done fine with it since day one. I'm starting to believe it was more me than her. LOL She could have probably slept by herself ages ago. She's a good cuddler, what can I say?! :)
She did fantastic in Pre-K and loved it. She never missed a day and always was ready to get up and go. She was the quiet but very sweet and lovable kid in her class according to her teachers.
She had her Hollywood Recital in June and performed a Little Mermaid song, Hannah Montana's 'Icecream Freeze', and the Dirty Dancing 'I had the time of my life' song. We are signing her up for Jazz on Monday nights and she'll still be doing Ballet/Tumbling/Tap on Thursdays. Keeping her busy, but she enjoys it alot.
We went to Crescent Beach, FL (south of St Augustine) last week for her birthday. We had a great time. It was a much needed vacation!!! We stayed on the beach most of the time, ate great seafood, and relaxed. Hated leaving, but glad to be home.
Still no + BFP yet, but it is, what is. God knows what He is doing. I can't question Him, I have to put my trust in Him.
A time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace."
Ecclesiates 3:1-8
One of my all time favorite scriptures. It is a great life reminder!
Speaking of life reminders ... it's been a while!!! I REALLY need to sit my butt down, atleast once a week and blog. It's good therapy. It's also a good passdown for Brooke one day, when she gets older.
Life is good over in these parts. I still work for the transportation company for Academy. It's been about a year and 1/2 now. I still enjoy it. There have been a few bumps, but like any job nothing that I couldn't overcome. It's definitely a fast paced business and I work more now than I ever did. I'm just holding out for that big break when I'll be able to slow down a little and enjoy life.
Brooke turned 5 last Wednesday!!! My little baby is now definitely my little girl. She loves all things Spongebob, dress up, Barbies, playing house, playing with her best friend Chesney, and has more energy than anyone I've ever seen. Did I ever have that much energy?!?! She is sleeping by herself now. I know that sounds like it should be old news, but nope - it was the one thing we both had a hard time breaking. She sleeps in her big girl bunk bed and has done fine with it since day one. I'm starting to believe it was more me than her. LOL She could have probably slept by herself ages ago. She's a good cuddler, what can I say?! :)
She did fantastic in Pre-K and loved it. She never missed a day and always was ready to get up and go. She was the quiet but very sweet and lovable kid in her class according to her teachers.
She had her Hollywood Recital in June and performed a Little Mermaid song, Hannah Montana's 'Icecream Freeze', and the Dirty Dancing 'I had the time of my life' song. We are signing her up for Jazz on Monday nights and she'll still be doing Ballet/Tumbling/Tap on Thursdays. Keeping her busy, but she enjoys it alot.
We went to Crescent Beach, FL (south of St Augustine) last week for her birthday. We had a great time. It was a much needed vacation!!! We stayed on the beach most of the time, ate great seafood, and relaxed. Hated leaving, but glad to be home.
Still no + BFP yet, but it is, what is. God knows what He is doing. I can't question Him, I have to put my trust in Him.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
The leaves are starting to fall :)
It's amazing how quickly this year is passing by!
Tomorrow starts the beginning of Autumn and it seems like yesterday we were counting down to a new year. Brooke is enjoying Pre-K and actually can't wait to get up and go to school :) I started a little tradition before she eats breakfast - I put Willy the Elephant (one of her favorite stuffed animal) in different spots with a note from Mommy for her to find. One morning she woke up to a whole tea party of stuffed animal friends in the nook for her to eat breakfast with. She absolutely loved it.
Here are a few updated pictures of the princess:
I had surgery yesterday - I've been having a lot of pain in my lower abdomen and other female problems. I was certain they were going to end up having to do a hystercotomy but they didn't. Other than the thick lining, my uterus looked healthy. They did a D & C and also drilled on my ovaries. This is suppose to help me ovulate on my own and get my cycles back to being regular. This has re-opened the doors to TTC. Of course, after I heal. Jr is apprehensive, but I've reminded him that they last time he decided that he didn't know what he wanted us to do, he changed his mind and we lost that 'golden opportunity' when I was actually fertile. So the motto right now, is whatever happens, happens :) And that makes this Mommy very happy.
Tomorrow starts the beginning of Autumn and it seems like yesterday we were counting down to a new year. Brooke is enjoying Pre-K and actually can't wait to get up and go to school :) I started a little tradition before she eats breakfast - I put Willy the Elephant (one of her favorite stuffed animal) in different spots with a note from Mommy for her to find. One morning she woke up to a whole tea party of stuffed animal friends in the nook for her to eat breakfast with. She absolutely loved it.
Here are a few updated pictures of the princess:
I had surgery yesterday - I've been having a lot of pain in my lower abdomen and other female problems. I was certain they were going to end up having to do a hystercotomy but they didn't. Other than the thick lining, my uterus looked healthy. They did a D & C and also drilled on my ovaries. This is suppose to help me ovulate on my own and get my cycles back to being regular. This has re-opened the doors to TTC. Of course, after I heal. Jr is apprehensive, but I've reminded him that they last time he decided that he didn't know what he wanted us to do, he changed his mind and we lost that 'golden opportunity' when I was actually fertile. So the motto right now, is whatever happens, happens :) And that makes this Mommy very happy.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Birthday, Updates and More!
It's amazing what we allow ourselves to block out of our lives. The many massquerades we find ourselves hiding behind in order to remain in denial. After my last post, I honestly put TTC in the back of my mind. Of course, when an acquaintance found out they were expecting, the issue kind of floated around, but not for long. I buried those resentments towards TTC - I think I buried them deep enough, where I won't allow them to control my life anymore.
Well, I'm at that one year mark of beginning this blog and I figured I would catch the world up with my life.
Tomorrow my princess will be FOUR years old. Four. Where have these years gone to? We celebrated her birthday Saturday and had a wonderful time. We went back to Sportz Quest for the party location and of course they did a good job. We had Amanda Meadows with Amanda's Cakery make Brooke's Hello Kity cake. She exceeded my expectations and the cake was magnificant!!! We didn't have a huge turnout but the ones who came made it more memorable if the party size was double that. She was happy and that's all that truly matters.
I started a new job in March. So far, I am liking it a lot better than my last job. Of course transportation logistics is a stressful industry - but not being on call anymore as well as not dealing with office politics has been well worth the change of scenary.
My father in law was diagnosed with invasive lung cancer June 22nd. Jr is an only child and his parents live with us - so this has been extremely trying on all of us. He is home from the hospital now and seems in good spirits. He starts chemo next week. He was able to make it to Brooke's party and that truly meant the world to all of us, especially him. Please remember him in your prayers.
Brooke starts Pre-K August 9th. I'm a nervous wreck!!!! I know she is going to do a wonderful job and I know she is going to enjoy it, but it's one more reminder that she isn't a baby anymore :(
Brooke also had a recital last month at The Grand Opera House in Macon. Her ballet/tap class performed 3 different scenes from Cats - yes the Broadway Musical. I was beyond proud of watching my little girl dancing and singing on stage in front of hundreds. She acted like it was her second home. We are signing her up for next term this month.
She is also taking swim lessons and is already swimming underwater like a little fish! We are really enjoying the swimming pool this year.
That sums up the Coleman Family right now. Hope you are each doing good and maybe I'll show up a little more often to give life updates :)
Well, I'm at that one year mark of beginning this blog and I figured I would catch the world up with my life.
Tomorrow my princess will be FOUR years old. Four. Where have these years gone to? We celebrated her birthday Saturday and had a wonderful time. We went back to Sportz Quest for the party location and of course they did a good job. We had Amanda Meadows with Amanda's Cakery make Brooke's Hello Kity cake. She exceeded my expectations and the cake was magnificant!!! We didn't have a huge turnout but the ones who came made it more memorable if the party size was double that. She was happy and that's all that truly matters.
I started a new job in March. So far, I am liking it a lot better than my last job. Of course transportation logistics is a stressful industry - but not being on call anymore as well as not dealing with office politics has been well worth the change of scenary.
My father in law was diagnosed with invasive lung cancer June 22nd. Jr is an only child and his parents live with us - so this has been extremely trying on all of us. He is home from the hospital now and seems in good spirits. He starts chemo next week. He was able to make it to Brooke's party and that truly meant the world to all of us, especially him. Please remember him in your prayers.
Brooke starts Pre-K August 9th. I'm a nervous wreck!!!! I know she is going to do a wonderful job and I know she is going to enjoy it, but it's one more reminder that she isn't a baby anymore :(
Brooke also had a recital last month at The Grand Opera House in Macon. Her ballet/tap class performed 3 different scenes from Cats - yes the Broadway Musical. I was beyond proud of watching my little girl dancing and singing on stage in front of hundreds. She acted like it was her second home. We are signing her up for next term this month.
She is also taking swim lessons and is already swimming underwater like a little fish! We are really enjoying the swimming pool this year.
That sums up the Coleman Family right now. Hope you are each doing good and maybe I'll show up a little more often to give life updates :)
Monday, January 11, 2010
Crossroads
"From grace comes truth, from truth comes a system of belief, from belief comes the freedom to decide." ~ Unknown
I am at a crossroads - I feel lost, empty, and have no idea what I am doing. I keep looking for some kind of certainity, answers - anything to help me get through each day. I smile, I laugh, I joke and act carefree - but every quiet moment to myself, I become real. More real than anyone has ever seen. I become sad, hopeless, unsure of myself, resentful, tired, curious as to why I am stuck in this miserable body. I cry until my eyes hurt and my chest aches.
Everywhere I look, someone is announcing their expecting pregnancy. I am truly happy for them, but OH how it anguishes my heart. I hate to say that I'm giving up, but I can't continue getting my hopes up, just to watch them shatter each month. I don't even know what day past ovulation I am. Don't get me wrong, it is on my mind constantly but it is becoming very overwhelming. I feel like I'm having one huge constant pity party for myself. I HATE when I get like that. I know I have many blessings to be grateful for ( I DONT NEED TO HEAR THAT), but when I can't accomplish something that most women have no issues at all creating, it gets to me; climbs into my inner soul and eats at it, tramples on the little bit of light I have left inside of me. I thought maybe I could do it this month on my own - I wasn't worrying as much, I have been eating good, taking my vitamins, water water water - and I am pretty positive that it just didn't happen.
I don't know what You have planned for me God - I really don't but I wish You would shed a little light so I would quit doing this to myself. I trust You & I love You no matter what decision You have made for me - all I ask is that You help me through it. I can't do this by myself........
"In my anguish I cried to Lord, and He answered by setting me free. The Lord is with me, I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?" Psalms 118:5-6
(This was my scripture for today. Can we say WOW?! I found it after I wrote this.)
Monday, January 4, 2010
Hotdog Sandwiches
"Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential and fight for your dreams." ~Ashley Smith
I promise to insert the picture I took over the weekend of the hotdog sandwich that Brooke requested for lunch Saturday as soon as I get home this evening. It kind of sparked the desire to open an unusual sandwich shop in downtown Macon. Jr says I'm crazy - but who knows, right? It would have all kinds of weird sandwiches on the menu - lasagna sandwich, spaghetti, hotdog, macaroni, etc. Everyone has to have a dream - mine just happens to be two slices of bread and something different outside of the norm, in between it.
Our weekend was great - I truly miss being home with Brooke right now. Unfortunately that doesn't pay the bills. So here I sit in this small office, bored to my wits end, writing this blog. I really have lots at home that needs to be done - laundry, cleaning our bedrooms, organizing the cabinets, taking a nap even ;o)
We took Brooke to see Alvin & The Chipmunks The Squeakal Saturday. She absolutely loved it - I'm amazed by how well she behaves in public. Sbe sat there the whole time, still and quiet. She gorged on popcorn & Raisinets. We let her play in the arcade afterwards - that to her was more fun than the actual movie. We went to my grandparents house on New Years Day and Brooke had fun playing with her cousins, picking camillas with my Papa, helping Patti in the kitchen & playing dolls with her Aunt April. We watched movies & baked a fudge cake at home. Nothing beats spending time with your family - it means the most to me. I'm going to take in all of these moments - the ones I will miss when she is grown & beginning her own life.
So, I've been kind of discreet about the whole babymaking thing this cycle --- I'm cd16. I guess I feel like if I talk about it, maybe I'll jinx it??? I don't know. Now clue if or when I will ovulate. I have taken 3 opk's and all have been negative - however, each day the line seems to get darker. We're trying this round without the help of doctors. No ultrasound checks = no disappointment. The disappointment, however turns into constant curiousity. I keep telling myself that if it doesn't happen, I'm going to live. Life does go on - even when we don't get what we want more than anything. We are all designed with a special purpose in mind by our Creator. He knows exactly what we are capable of and even when we think He doesn't hear our prayers - He does. He will answer them - even if it's not the one we wanted.
We have gone ahead and started the pre-application process for adoption through Covenant Care Adoption Services. I didn't realize how much it cost to adopt!!!!! You would figure that if you had a loving family & was willing to take in a child in your home & life, to care for & love forever, that the only cost you would have to pay are the legal ones. However, there are all kinds of fees that you have to pay: application fee, home assessment fee, pre-placement fee, placement fee, hourly fee for contract work, a home assessment update fee, supervisory fees, court report and contract home assessment fees. It all totals around $20,000!!!!! I'm going to ask a friend of mine what she had to do when adopting her daughter. I don't think she had to pay even 1/4 of that.
Now - onto other news. We are looking at some land in Gray - 10 acres, beautiful lot next to an even more gorgeous creek. It's reasonably priced and Jr & I want it so bad we can taste it. We both talk about all the stuff we want to do with it - building a family home to call our own for years to come. We have spoke with the realtor and just waiting for him to overcome an illness so he can give us a formal viewing of it. Jr's ready to spend his weekend clearing & cleaning out land. I'm looking forward to designing my own home :)
Enough of 'me time' - let me finish up my work here and prepare for my real job (aka Mommy) when I get home.
I promise to insert the picture I took over the weekend of the hotdog sandwich that Brooke requested for lunch Saturday as soon as I get home this evening. It kind of sparked the desire to open an unusual sandwich shop in downtown Macon. Jr says I'm crazy - but who knows, right? It would have all kinds of weird sandwiches on the menu - lasagna sandwich, spaghetti, hotdog, macaroni, etc. Everyone has to have a dream - mine just happens to be two slices of bread and something different outside of the norm, in between it.
Our weekend was great - I truly miss being home with Brooke right now. Unfortunately that doesn't pay the bills. So here I sit in this small office, bored to my wits end, writing this blog. I really have lots at home that needs to be done - laundry, cleaning our bedrooms, organizing the cabinets, taking a nap even ;o)
We took Brooke to see Alvin & The Chipmunks The Squeakal Saturday. She absolutely loved it - I'm amazed by how well she behaves in public. Sbe sat there the whole time, still and quiet. She gorged on popcorn & Raisinets. We let her play in the arcade afterwards - that to her was more fun than the actual movie. We went to my grandparents house on New Years Day and Brooke had fun playing with her cousins, picking camillas with my Papa, helping Patti in the kitchen & playing dolls with her Aunt April. We watched movies & baked a fudge cake at home. Nothing beats spending time with your family - it means the most to me. I'm going to take in all of these moments - the ones I will miss when she is grown & beginning her own life.
So, I've been kind of discreet about the whole babymaking thing this cycle --- I'm cd16. I guess I feel like if I talk about it, maybe I'll jinx it??? I don't know. Now clue if or when I will ovulate. I have taken 3 opk's and all have been negative - however, each day the line seems to get darker. We're trying this round without the help of doctors. No ultrasound checks = no disappointment. The disappointment, however turns into constant curiousity. I keep telling myself that if it doesn't happen, I'm going to live. Life does go on - even when we don't get what we want more than anything. We are all designed with a special purpose in mind by our Creator. He knows exactly what we are capable of and even when we think He doesn't hear our prayers - He does. He will answer them - even if it's not the one we wanted.
We have gone ahead and started the pre-application process for adoption through Covenant Care Adoption Services. I didn't realize how much it cost to adopt!!!!! You would figure that if you had a loving family & was willing to take in a child in your home & life, to care for & love forever, that the only cost you would have to pay are the legal ones. However, there are all kinds of fees that you have to pay: application fee, home assessment fee, pre-placement fee, placement fee, hourly fee for contract work, a home assessment update fee, supervisory fees, court report and contract home assessment fees. It all totals around $20,000!!!!! I'm going to ask a friend of mine what she had to do when adopting her daughter. I don't think she had to pay even 1/4 of that.
Now - onto other news. We are looking at some land in Gray - 10 acres, beautiful lot next to an even more gorgeous creek. It's reasonably priced and Jr & I want it so bad we can taste it. We both talk about all the stuff we want to do with it - building a family home to call our own for years to come. We have spoke with the realtor and just waiting for him to overcome an illness so he can give us a formal viewing of it. Jr's ready to spend his weekend clearing & cleaning out land. I'm looking forward to designing my own home :)
Enough of 'me time' - let me finish up my work here and prepare for my real job (aka Mommy) when I get home.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Holiday Schomorgesborg
"Years end is neither an end nor a beginning, but a going on , with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us." ~ Hal Borland
Wow! I can't believe that Christmas has come & gone! It barely feels like it stopped through long enough for a short visit and then was out before I could open my eyes. We certainly had a wonderful one despite my poor Jr being sick Christmas day. Brooke was spoiled beyond reasoning but I'm grateful that she does understand the true meaning behind this wonderful holiday event - she woke up that morning saying "Happy Birthday Jesus." She threw on her purple dress up heels and clunked her way through the hallway with Mommy & Daddy in tow - when she got to the living room, her jaw dropped and she stood in disbelief at what she saw lying beneath the tree. The scene was priceless and I will always remember the look of utter shock and excitement on my baby girl's face in that moment of innocence. Brooke & I spent the day with my grandparents, mom, sister & her family and Bubba and his family as well. Jr, poor guy, spent it at home resting. I really felt like a piece of me was missing - corney I know but I couldn't really enjoy myself completely over there without him. It was kind of noticable and my mother commented on the miserable look on my face. I'm happy to say he is feeling much better now and I managed not to get it! Must be the prenatal vitamins and other herbal supplements I'm on :)
Here are some pics from our Christmas day & a Christmas party at my grandparents house:
Along with Christmas flying by so fast - another year has managed to come & go even more quickly. I have a handful of things that I am anticipating in 2010. I decided to make a list - one of my favorite things to do by the way :)
Wow! I can't believe that Christmas has come & gone! It barely feels like it stopped through long enough for a short visit and then was out before I could open my eyes. We certainly had a wonderful one despite my poor Jr being sick Christmas day. Brooke was spoiled beyond reasoning but I'm grateful that she does understand the true meaning behind this wonderful holiday event - she woke up that morning saying "Happy Birthday Jesus." She threw on her purple dress up heels and clunked her way through the hallway with Mommy & Daddy in tow - when she got to the living room, her jaw dropped and she stood in disbelief at what she saw lying beneath the tree. The scene was priceless and I will always remember the look of utter shock and excitement on my baby girl's face in that moment of innocence. Brooke & I spent the day with my grandparents, mom, sister & her family and Bubba and his family as well. Jr, poor guy, spent it at home resting. I really felt like a piece of me was missing - corney I know but I couldn't really enjoy myself completely over there without him. It was kind of noticable and my mother commented on the miserable look on my face. I'm happy to say he is feeling much better now and I managed not to get it! Must be the prenatal vitamins and other herbal supplements I'm on :)
Here are some pics from our Christmas day & a Christmas party at my grandparents house:
Along with Christmas flying by so fast - another year has managed to come & go even more quickly. I have a handful of things that I am anticipating in 2010. I decided to make a list - one of my favorite things to do by the way :)
- Strengthening my relationship with God
- Brooke starting Pre-K. Bittersweet.
- Celebrating being with Jr for 10 years
- Hopefully (fingers crossed) Baby Coleman #2
- New friendships blossoming
- Starting my book - it's been four months since Jr bought me my laptop. Need to put it to use.
- March of Dimes walk in April
- Dear John movie in February
- Reading new books
- Florida!
- Brooke's formal dance recital in June
- All the little unknown joys that will surprise me when I least expect it.
I am undecided whether or not I will make any resolutions this year. I always manage to disappoint myself within a couple of months anyways. A New Years resolution is something that goes in one year and out the other. Haha If I did - I'm NOT adding weightloss on it AGAIN for the 100th time. It would be more like building my relationship with Jr, blogging more, praying more, finding my creative niche, worry less, love more, and teach Brooke lessons that will enlighten her life.
With that being said - I'm off to read The Last Song and cuddle in bed with Brooke. G'night all!
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